Buenas tardes, mis amigos y mis seres queridos! I'd just like to share some stuff with you guys from this last week.
There is less active member of the church in our area who has been struggling a bit with his identity as well as worthiness, but who wants to come back to church and make it a part of his life again. And what we shared with him is what I will share with you.
What is your relationship with Jesus Christ right now? In any point, did you feel like you have disappointed him? Do you feel like you have weaknesses, and errors which you make constantly, even after repenting many times? Do you feel like you have exhausted His patience? Allow me to share a passage in the Book of Mormon, which can remind us of what He thinks of us. In 3 Nephi 11, the resurrected Christ comes and appears to the Nephites, the inhabitants of the Americas, and says the following.
8 And it came to pass, as they understood they cast their eyes up again towards heaven; and behold, they saw a Man descendingout of heaven; and he was clothed in a white robe; and he came down and stood in the midst of them; and the eyes of the whole multitude were turned upon him, and they durst not open their mouths, even one to another, and wist not what it meant, for they thought it was an angel that had appeared unto them.
9 And it came to pass that he stretched forth his hand and spake unto the people, saying:
10 Behold, I am Jesus Christ, whom the prophets testified shall come into the world.
11 And behold, I am the light and the life of the world; and I have drunk out of that bitter cup which the Father hath given me, and have glorified the Father in taking upon me the sins of the world, in the which I have suffered the will of the Father in all things from the beginning.
12 And it came to pass that when Jesus had spoken these words the whole multitude fell to the earth; for they remembered that it had been prophesied among them that Christ should show himself unto them after his ascension into heaven.
13 And it came to pass that the Lord spake unto them saying:
14 Arise and come forth unto me, that ye may thrust your hands into my side, and also that ye may feel the prints of the nails in my hands and in my feet, that ye may know that I am the God of Israel, and the God of the whole earth, and have been slain for the sins of the world.
15 And it came to pass that the multitude went forth, and thrust their hands into his side, and did feel the prints of the nails in his hands and in his feet; and this they did do, going forth one by one until they had all gone forth, and did see with their eyes and did feel with their hands, and did know of a surety and did bear record, that it was he, of whom it was written by the prophets, that should come.
Imagine the hands and feet of the Savior, in that moment, right before your eyes. Imagine what He suffered... He bled from every pore and died so that we might not have to suffer in that way for our own transgressions and sins. All that He asks is to come unto Him, repent of our sins, and have faith in Him, being baptized by water and by fire and by the Holy Ghost. He offered His body and His blood, and asks in return our sins, our fears, our pride, and our hearts. It is gentle but bold invitation, to come unto Him, and to follow Him.
I have never seen a painting so beautifully and clearly painted of my own weaknesses and my fears in any other part of my life than the mission. I recognize all the things I lack. I want to be a better son and brother and friend, and I want to make sure that in the future I can be the best father and spouse and leader that I can. Nonetheless, it is all in vain if I don't do it for Christ. I realize that when I begin to fear and worry in my personal improvement, I begin to have low self esteem, and I grow tense, and I make excuses, and I stop trying, and I don't feel happy in the end. But when I pray, and I bring these things to my Heavenly Father, recognizing that I am in a fallen state, and remembering the divine mission of the Savior which He committed to accomplish since the beginning--to save us from our fallen state, I gain hope, and I don't lose self esteem, but rather I humble myself, and it is all put in perspective. In the end, I am happier when the things I am trying to do is dedicated to the Savior, and no one else.
Is this something I remember constantly? No. I am still very human. I might even almost be the same person I was before the mission. But I now know what it means to make it all about Christ.
Now, I hope that this reaches you, whoever it is that reads this, whether you are a member of the Church or not. I hope that what I write helps you in your own personal conversion to Christ. It is personal, and it is between you and Him. And when you pray, it is between you and Him. When you do service, it is between you and Him. When you have fears and personal struggles, make it between you and Him. When you have anger towards another person, or pride, or any sort of feeling which would not be pleasing unto Him, make it between you and Him. After all, and when we are presented before our Father to be judged of our deeds, it is He who will be our judge. I know that He is the Savior, and I know that His Gospel is true. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
Have a wonderful week!
Your friend,
Elder Dredge
Elder Braden K. Dredge
Guatemala Guatemala City East Mission